In the New year, we look forward to many things....we set resolutions, we plan ahead for the year, we look forward in achieving new goals, and most of all..we want to be a better person. For myself, im actually quite contend with my resolutions last year in which i managed to fulfill all of it...the album, the music, the launch at last. This year, i plan to take the music or rather the album to another level. Because, i always believe....as human, we are greedy, just depends how much greed we have. To me, i take this greed as the urge to improve...because life is short, and we have to make the best of it.
I've got a new resolution this year, and it really tops the rest of it..that i ever had or wished before. Its for this friend of mine, Brian Tan...in fact, a very good friend of mine whom i respect and admire because for his dedication to his craft in Music, both teaching and performing. Brian plays the violin and piano superbly and I regard him as the pioneer of the electric violin in Malaysia. Besides, he conducts the KL Pac Simfonietta Orchestra in which frm the beginning he nurtured young and amateur aspiring musicians into becoming musicians who are able to achieve their dreams today. To sum it all up, he is one of the very few outstanding all rounder musician who is amazingly talented in his respective specialization.
Late last month, i received news frm a mutual friend of ours, Dominic that Brian's being diagnosed with Stage 4 Pancreatic Cancer. My heart sunk upon hearing it...and immediately i know there is no one i could turned to for help except God. cause, one thing for sure, the Lord has been very kind to me last year. He listens, and answers your prayers....and thats one thing for sure. Since then, Brian and I have been constantly in touch via sms and believe it or not, i do send him a daily bible verse every afternoon without fail till today....which i received these verses via an application on facebook daily. I take it as God's daily message to me....and probably God would wanna speak to him through me....well, thats how i think...but at least it comforts me.=)
Pancreatic cancer is a silent killer, it affects ppl i personally know, my dear uncle, Hollywood actor the late Patrick Swayze whom all have fell victim to this cancer. Is a "disease" in which by the time u have experienced the symptoms of it, its already at the later stage and chemotherapy would only be the only option. Because surgery normally (if found out later)would not be able to remove the tumour, blocking arteries and have already spread to other parts of the body. Brian's case was similar and it does hurt me deeply for waking up daily knowing that the options are little.
Brian is one of the most hardworking, energetic and inspiring musician / friend i have ever known. You can never see the tiredness in his eyes therefore i could understand the admiration and respect his students has for him. Even when i visited him yesterday evening at his place. His positive mindset and happy go lucky attitude in battling this cancer really left me speechless.. It made me think twice of the little obstacles we face everyday.. and sometimes, being frustrated easily because we cant get a simple thing done...But seeing Brian so strong and in return convince me that he will be strong and fight this through cause we still plan to work and perform together in my upcoming concert series and have many more late night suppers when he gets better, despite losing much weight due to the surgery.
I never regard my blog as a superbly commercial blog because as you can see frm my previous post, i only speak about my music...However this time, i would like to Urge each and everyone of you as readers of of my blog..., to just please Pray for this dear friend of mine, Brian, that he will fight and win this battle against Pancreas Cancer.
Yesterday morning in Church, a friend of mine, King Wai recommended me this blog who is about a lady who has stage 4 lung cancer and managed to survive till today. Thus, motivates me to further believe that all things are possible...and a miraculous miracle might happen very soon.=)
Below are a few verses which i find it extremely meaningful frm her blog: www.lizadventure.blogspot.com
1 Have mercy on me, O God, have mercy on me,
for in you my soul takes refuge.
I will take refuge in the shadow of your wings
until the disaster has passed.
10 So do not fear, for I am with you;
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
1 My son, do not forget my teaching,
but keep my commands in your heart,
2 for they will prolong your life many years
and bring you prosperity.
Psalm 51:2-4 (New International Version)
2 Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.
3 For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.
4 Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight,
so that you are proved right when you speak
and justified when you judge.
Brian said that after many years of hardwork, its time for him to take a Vacation, to treat this cancer. He says he treats this cancer as a friend and all he can do right now is to speak to his new found "friend" of him to go away as soon as possible. Its true and indeed very inspiring.
So dear readers and friends of my nimble fingers blog, once again I'm here asking you a favor to join the army and pls pray for Brian Tan for his speedy road to recovery, pray that the doctors in Singapore would try their very best and for the chemotherapy to destroy the cancer cells. You wouldn't know how much a little time of yours would help in giving him the encouragement and determination to win this battle! May God Bless you, Brian....and all of you too.=)